lets chew tires..

2009-09-01T11:25:00.002+01:00

because..

there're so many reasons to be happy :)

thus this really happy post

look! mr happy!

but he cant seem to stand on his own, he leans to his right all the time.

say hello to my new phone buddy

mr happy's really happy

look! macbook pro :))))

pure awesome-ness..

a big thankyou to my parents! i'll treat it as a uni gift.

my study table with all that pink post-its.

mr happy's sitting on my very happy-looking folder

it has such cute prints and velcro seal!

my multi-coloured bed with my wardrobe.

geeez i have a green pillow, blue bedsheets, yellow cushion, pink blanket

so... UNMATCHING.

ok my room on the 1st week i moved in

look at my snoopy themed bed! cool shitt right

i love it that woodstock's on my pillow

im so busy busy busy but i like the feeling of being busy :)

it's not being overwhelmingly busy though.

i must keep up with my tutorials and lectures, and if possible revision.

gahhhh

and i dont understand why my architecture lecturer is ranting abt the beauty of the OCBC building or the Paya Lebar MRT station.

i still find myself staring at the pictures and figuring it out

now, tell me tell me why im in biological sciences after all.

i can hear the sispec/pasir laba ppl going BOOMBOOMBOOMBOOM from hall.

think GREEN ppl like jrmy running arnd firing at stuff and blowing TNTs up

i can see the jungle from my window btw..

BOOOOOOOMMMM!

hahhaa i miss each and everyone of you.

ok, jas is my roomie!

jo is so busy with JCRC and other hall stuff,

mandy's caught up with her very unstable and crammed timetable plus hall activities

rx's busy with sch too, and she doesnt stay in hall :((

ali and hayden the stagmont GREENS are further away from NTU now that they're not in sispec

kenneth the neesoon GREEN is too far away from the westside ppl

and jrmy the pasir laba green is just a jungle away but too busy blowing things up BOOOMM!

plus cass and ksahh and ivy and sarina

we're all so caught up with our own matters now

but i'll make time for all you ppl!

2009-08-11T17:07:00.000+01:00

be proud of me
come on be proud of me! :)

sch finally started
i think im going to get that whole slping-in-lectures thing again.
aye. it's a bad habit and i know it very well.
i've been trying to change believe me :)
shifted into hall and settled in!
now my wardrobe looks so empty
and im thirsty but the pantry is not in use
and im sticky and dirty and perspiring because it's such a damn hot day im melting.
and the room has one pathetic fan and one pathetic window which all that evening sun is coming in thru now.
geez why am i complaining.

sat on the bare mattress for abt 15 mins wondering what to do and where to start from.
XT WENT ON ALL FOURS to clean the room cos it was so filthy i had to do sth abt it.
now everything is ~~clean~~ CLEANER, i need to bathe and get some water before i dehydrate further -.-
im prob gonna get some potted plants and other deco stuff with tifen tmr at JP
the room looks so dead. and dirty :(

uni re-unites everyone i swear.
i saw sharyl, carey, xiangmei, tsang, yadayadayadayada.
i need waterrrrrrrrr :(

2009-07-30T15:19:00.000+01:00

well well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEEEE!
gosh im 19. doesnt even feel like it.
but how do you even feel 19?
geez.

im a total idiot, couch potato, slacker, and everything else i wanted to be.
i mean, my aim for this long break, to have a no-aim day like today.
woke up at 12-ish (ok it's becoming a norm)
had leftover instant noodles for breakfast (thanks to my mom)
then had chocolate muffins,
and pizza for lunch (at 3pm hahah!)
drank rootbeer and burped muchhh
hahaa im as unglam as i can get but it doesnt really matter cos im at home :))
im still craving edamame, and buttercorn!
watching sappy korean dramas
and looking at vintage rings on etsy
my hair's in a mess
and i havent exercised in nearly 2 weeks
played my fav songs on the piano
and woooo my face feels so smooth thanks to my neutrogena mask ytd night!
hahhaa
ok the dishes are still unwashed gahh
i know im a total wols ass but i wanna watch gossipgirl season 2!!

2009-07-19T02:48:00.001+01:00

true colours will bleed says:
omgggggg
true colours will bleed says:
http://www.*************
true colours will bleed says:
read this
true colours will bleed says:
so narcissistic!\
true colours will bleed says:
hahaha saw that a few weeks ago.
<> says:
ya i am reading!
true colours will bleed says:
omg I AM A COMPLETE FUCKING BITCH BUT I AM ENJOYING IT
<> says:
********************************
<> says:
ya
<> says:
we all agreed we are a bitch
<> says:
which explains why my blog is privatised!
<> says:
i can be a bitch but i cant be bitched at
<> says:
and bring xian in!
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Rayx` everyday and night. says:
yoohoo
Rayx` everyday and night. says:
er.. is that?
Rayx` everyday and night. says:
spam?
true colours will bleed says:
nonono
true colours will bleed says:
read it and guess who
true colours will bleed says:
omg i had a MAAAAAJOR JAW DROPPING SESSION A WHILE AGO
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[AT THIS POINT IN TIME, RX IS TRYING TO RE-ENACT A SCENE]
Rayx` everyday and night. says:
hey **********
Rayx` everyday and night. says:
i like ********** leh
Rayx` everyday and night. says:
how how??
true colours will bleed says:
hahahhahah
<> says:
damn sick lah
true colours will bleed says:
omg angs i love the way you said that!

hahaha omg we're such perfect idiots, but we're enjoying it.
well.. just for today :)
jo said we'll be angels tmr.
but too bad for you.
let's just say being different makes you feel alive, functioning, cognizant, existent.
and i love the way you perceive matters, you always have a unique perspective.
trust me, we ADORE you :))

2009-07-16T17:53:00.000+01:00

YAYYY im sucha lazy idiot i cooped myself up at home
and im trying to cope with the flood of msges and response.
geez. this is only the tip of the ice-berg -.-
and i shall stop publicizing abt my efficiency (or lack thereof hahah!)

i think gary jules is a genius for mad world and falling awake :))

and i just found this from AA!
im so stoked abt it! costs freaking 28USD but im not that crazy to get it
hahaha
presenting..

Thermochromatic
Sheer Jersey T-Shirt

watch the vid! :))

2009-07-15T18:34:00.000+01:00

went swimming ytd with jo :))
swam abt 12 laps
maybe 14 instead.. hahah i think jo conned me -.-
was supposed to gym today but i was too lazyy to drag my ass out of the hse.
guess i have to wait till tmr to step into my trainers and put them to good use :))

oh yes, if you havent checked deviantart out, it's abt time you do so!
here're are few that i really like.

WARNING: IMAGE-HEAVY POST

i love this picture! :) it's so expressive

awww it's a doll! so life-like eh?

my fav of the lot :))

so adorable! :))

soooo cute and quirky!

haha this really cracked me up
no pun intended.

2009-07-14T00:38:00.000+01:00

eeeck!
i'm so happy today!
i dont know what's the reason..
but it's def one of those "xt is a jollypolly" days :))
might be that long bus ride to HCI today
might be that therapeutic effect on the soul music offers
might be that im going swimming tmr with jo
might be that i have settled my finances and surpassed my targeted savings plan
might be that i have had subway veggie delight for lunch
might be anything!
hahahah i feel myself brimming with joy

2009-07-13T00:58:00.000+01:00

i bought my sony T90 a while back :))
haha im such a show-off so back off if you cant take it.

in this colour too!
it's brown.
much prettier in real life.
touch screen, yadayada
and and and all the functions are so fun

this picture spells awesomeness.
dont give me that "oh i can take pictures more professional and nicer than this"
nyehnyeh
i cant hear youuuuu

2009-07-12T23:46:00.001+01:00

i've done so much shopping this week!!
yaaaaaaaaaaaa (xt style)
see:

ipanema flipflops :))) soft rubbery comfy, i like.
backpack :)))) my new fav yay!
2 racerbacks (YOU HAVE SO MANY IN YOUR WARDROBE! -says my mom. but it can never be enough)
sweater (for lectures!!)
asics trainers!! :))) which almost make up half the amount spent

geez.. i realized it's not alot.
aye..
i have 25bucks left to spare for my back-to-school budget
i need:

white denim skirt
casual dresses
gold matte flats (basically, more flats!)
stationery!!
new bag
swimsuit (ok, not exactly back-to-sch. but i have been wearing my current swimsuit since sec 1/2. hahah!)

ok.. cant think of anymore now.
but i dont think it's possible with my budget
and and i think im so materialistic :(
ive made up a list of resolutions, but im not gonna post it here
confidential stuff, so yup :))

there are sales alllllll around allllllll around!!
hahaha and i get so happy and dizzy just looking at stuff on sale
weird, i know.
i need to control my spendings from now on.
im barely surviving on my income
but i guess it's all a matter or choice if i want to splurge and get money from my parents or not
aye.. i just keep thinking about how im going to graduate from uni and have such a pathetic sum of money in my bank acc.
plus tuition is really not my thing.
guess i can try teaching kindertones?
shall see abt it.

im kinda tempted to deck my fingers in rings, gaudy or not, à la Rumi style!
or necklaces, bracelets.
just random things that i like to do..
ahh xt you materialistic shit

2009-07-09T18:30:00.000+01:00

wow
so much abt e-commerce in less than 2 hrs
plus marketing strategies
certainly a very enriching crash course
but.. aye
i dunno. guess business is not my kind of thing

anw, found this whole chunk of chinese characters somewhere and i thought, hey maybe i'll post it and it'll be useful..
but OMG it was chinese and i'll take a helluva time to read it :(

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、恋著你，
不论做什么事情，
只要能一起，就是好的，
但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
於是问题一个接著一个发生，
你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？

她适合你，那你又适合她吗?
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
但是记住人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，
只要你有心、有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨，你开始磨了吗？

很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
所以人才会变得懒惰。
错！
其实是人先被惰性征服，
所以感情才会变淡的。

在某个聚餐的场合,
有人提议多吃点虾子对身体好，
这时候有个中年男人忽然说
[十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候，她说要吃十只虾，我

就剥二十只给她！现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧]

听到了吗？明白了吗？
难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。

如果每个人都
懒得讲话、
懒得倾听、
懒得制造惊喜、
懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，
又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？

所以请记住：
有活力的爱情，
是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！

我们总说：我要找一个你很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。
但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你可能无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。

没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
但是你有没有想过在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？
所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！
他或许已经等你很久喽！

当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。
如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

所以请记住，
喝酒不要超过六分醉，
吃饭不要超过七分饱，
爱一个人不要超过八分

那天朋友问我：到底该怎么做才算是爱一个人呢？
我笑著跟他说：其实每个人的爱情观都不一样，说对了叫开导，但就怕说错反倒变成误导。那

就糟糕了！

如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
要道歉，也要道谢；
要认错，也要改错；
要体贴，也要体谅；
是接受，而不是忍受；
是宽容，而不是纵容；
是支持，而不是支配；
是慰问，而不是质问；
是倾诉，而不是控诉；
是难忘，而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求，
而不是向对方诸多要求；
可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
可以随时牵手，但不要随便分手。

woooookay..
soooo much chinese

thought i'd have so much time on my hands after AYG.
but gahhh i am almost as busy.
i really need to go to national library for one whole week, do nth but just read and have my meals and repeat...
and when i get tired of reading i shall visit hans for my cheesecake or use my com, or listen to music, or just stare at ppl on the streets!
and if i do see sth interesting, i'll whip out my cam and start snapping away!
:))) *triple chin grin!

oh yess, check out this freaky thing

zzzzz. stupid resolutions.
i was certain i was like O.O when i saw this.
how do you think they worked it out?
like how often you visit someone's page?
how often you tag someone in a note?
how many mutual friends you have?
there must be some explanation to this..

2009-07-03T13:32:00.000+01:00

im not gonna bother abt updating what has happened. so unnecessary..
but anw, NTU awaits me.
and eventually Duke/UK/Aussie
yayyy

but anw, here's sth to do on long breaks like this!

101 Books to read before you die

The Lord of the Rings – J.R.R. Tolkien
The Kite Runner – Khaled Hosseini
Pride and Prejudice – Jane Austen
To Kill a Mockingbird – Harper Lee
The Harry Potter series – JK Rowling (HALF READ)
The Poisonwood Bible – Barbara Kingsolver
The Alchemist – Paulo Coelho
Life of Pi – Yann Martel
~~The Da Vinci Code~~ ~~– Dan Brown~~
The God of Small Things – Arundhati Roy
~~Memoirs of a Geisha~~ – Arthur Golden
Spud – John van de Ruit
The Power of One – Bryce Courtenay
The Hobbit – J.R.R. Tolkien
Captain Corelli’s Mandolin – Louis de Bernieres
Shantaram – Gregory David Roberts
Wuthering Heights – Emily Bronte
Catcher in the Rye – J.D. Salinger
Jane Eyre – Charlotte Bronte
The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy – Douglas Adams
One Hundred Years of Solitude – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
Disgrace – J. M. Coetzee
My Sister’s Keeper – Jodi Picoult
The Time Traveller’s Wife – Audrey Niffenegger
Birdsong – Sebastian Faulks
Catch-22 – Joseph Heller
Pillars of the Earth – Ken Follett
Gone with the Wind – Margaret Mitchell
Cry, the Beloved Country – Alan Paton
The Great Gatsby – F. Scott Fitzgerald
A Fine Balance – Rohinton Mistry
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night Time – Mark Haddon
Great Expectations – Charles Dickens
Atonement – Ian McEwan
Atlas Shrugged – Ayn Rand
The Grapes of Wrath – John Steinbeck
The English Patient – Michael Ondaatje
Anna Karenina – Leo Tolstoy
Midnight’s Children – Salman Rushdie
Love in the Time of Cholera – Gabriel Garcia Marquez
The Shadow of the Wind – Carlos Ruiz Zafon
I Know This Much is True – Wally Lamb
A Suitable Boy – Vikram Seth
Nineteen Eighty-Four – George Orwell
War And Peace – Leo Tolstoy
Clan of the Cave Bear – Jean M. Auel
The Unbearable Lightness of Being – Milan Kundera
The Little Prince – Antoine de Saint-Exupery
The Secret History – Donna Tartt
Possession – A. S. Byatt
Perfume – Patrick Suskind (HALF READ gave up in the middle cos omg it's draggy)
The House of the Spirits – Isabel Allende
Chocolat – Joanne Harris
The No. 1 Ladies’ Detective Agency – Alexander McCall Smith
Q & A – Vikas Swarup
Dune – Frank Herbert
Wind in the Willows – Kenneth Grahame
Fugitive Pieces – Anne Michaels
River God – Wilbur Smith
Little Women – Louisa May Alcott
Lord of the Flies – William Golding
The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe – C.S. Lewis
Mort – Terry Pratchett
Crime and Punishment – Feodor Dostoyevsky
The Blind Assassin – Margaret Atwood
East of Eden – John Steinbeck
The Name of the Rose – Umberto Eco
The Other Boleyn Girl – Philippa Gregory
The Boy in the Striped Pyjamas – John Boyne
The Prince of Tides – Pat Conroy
Rebecca – Daphne du Maurier
Bridget Jones’ Diary – Helen Fielding
The Shipping News – E. Annie Proulx
~~Alice in Wonderland~~ – Lewis Carroll
~~Animal Farm~~ – George Orwell
The Red Tent – Anita Diamant
Watership Down – Richard Adams
Magician – Raymond E Feist
Middlemarch – George Eliot
The Day of the Jackal – Frederick Forsyth
We Need to Talk About Kevin – Lionel Shriver
The Magus – John Fowles
The Remains of the Day – Kazuo Ishiguro
Agaat – Marlene van Niekerk
The Count of Monte Cristo – Alexandre Dumas
The Shell Seekers – Rosamunde Pilcher
The Colour Purple – Alice Walker
The Beach House – James Patterson
Doctor Zhivago – Boris Pasternak
Kringe in ‘n Bos – Dalene Matthee
The World according to Garp – John Irving
Northen Lights – Phillip Pullman
Middlesex – Jeffrey Eugenides
Shades – Marguerite Poland
Kane and Abel – Jeffrey Archer
Fiela se kind – Dalene Matthee
Story of an African Farm – Olive Schreiner
~~Charlie and the Chocolate Factory~~ ~~– Roald Dahl~~
The Magic Faraway Tree – Enid Blyton
Things Fall Apart – Chinua Achebe
~~Winnie-the-Pooh~~ ~~– A.A. Milne~~ (is there even a book?? but yes i watched the series)

now now im such a FAIL..
i read, but just not these books listed here..
guess the list is pretty much subjectively based.
so im planning to read 5 things in this list, and i shall take immediate action. ahhaha
action! reaction! (saw that on some weird korean variety show)

and and and i just read this really amazing book called Suzanne's diary for Nicholas by James Patterson in the library while killing time
i almost cried in the library :(
really touching one here.. read it and it speaks volumes.

on a side note, ive really lost touch with my html stuff
it was really basic knowledge at first but even that seems to be disappearing
goshh i think im really getting mouldy after A lvls.

2009-05-24T17:22:00.000+01:00

i am
so pisssssssed
with
N**

ahahhaha
better censor
if not i might get into trouble and the current situation gets worse.

accept me
omgg

fuck GEEEEPEEE
:((

2009-05-03T21:42:00.000+01:00

my beloved phone died this morning
like BOOOM it went dead.
ok the battery to be exact..
maybe it self-destructed after tolerating much abuse from its owner
who carelessly throws it all arnd
and undergone one and a half years of shock abuse
seeing its owner thru lots of nonsense
A lvls,
mugging,
idiotic shits,
horrifying experiences,
sad and depressing stuff,
happy memories
and millions of footsteps with its motion detector..
zzzzzzz
how tragic.
:(

2009-04-28T22:24:00.000+01:00

THIS is the extent of how dangerous microbiology can be
oh god bless me you you you you you you you you you you you aye..
i know what i should do. i think.

its hitting closer to home.

hayden's booking out tmr!
aye, i'd want the guys home if IT happens
but i guess being in tekong would be safer?
:(

ive been accepted in NTU
but omg wth.
nvm. i shall not talk abt it

being alone gives me so much time to think
to think abt stuff ive never thought i could comprehend
to understand how come people act a certain way
and i could put myself in their shoes

i met a little girl today, probably of about 6-7 yrs old
"are you a doctor?"
"no im not"
"yes i am"
"then are you a nurse?"
"nope im not"
"id wouldnt want to"
"then what are you?"
"im an assistant therapist."
"i really wanna tell you im a doctor, thats what i want to find myself saying. but no, you won't understand."
thankyou so much for asking..
but i cant say yes to your first question.
i wish i could
but maybe if you ask me 8 yrs ltr..
i could proudly tell you, "YESSS i am"

2009-04-27T22:14:00.000+01:00

"…when the first baby laughed for the first time, its laugh broke into a thousand pieces, and they all went skipping about, and that was the beginning of fairies."

-The Little White Bird; J. M. Barrie, 1902.

Monti Csardas

2009-04-22T23:20:00.003+01:00

Monti Csárdás!!

hahaha pretty awesome piece of music
love it when the mood changes along with the tempo and all sorts.

i willlll master this piece if i do learn the violin
:)))
*triple-chin grin*

<

a more entertaining vers.
less 'wow' factor for me than the previous one i though..

i think i ought to do some A lvl math questions
before my brain malfunctions
and slowly deteriorates..
self destruct
KABOOOM!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!!

2009-04-21T23:42:00.000+01:00

this will be the
first
(and possibly only, in the near future)
time
im going to say this..

I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL!!
:(

work eat slp.
repeat.
zzzzzzzzz
what happened to all that happening events in my life?
ogayy i cant possibly say that my work isnt happening..
its pretty fun and really enriching
but what i need is a
one week longggg SLEEP LEAVE
tyvm.

lets see.
monday: out with crescent clique x)
tuesday: nth much, dinner with family
wednesday: daddy's birthdayyyy!
thursday: no plans at the moment, slp shall take priority
friday: out with darlingssss (minus hayden)
saturday: back to SAJC (tentative)
sunday: no plans yet.

yayyyy
this will be the busiest week for 2 weeks thus far
congratulations

2009-04-20T00:48:00.000+01:00

where do i stand ` ?
what is my importance `?
incomplete. unanswered.
where ` ?
dont be so unassuming.
dont pretend ` .
its been a long while.

2009-04-16T19:17:00.001+01:00

bloody bald bl___ old cheekopeh
fancy having a cold war with me?
so childish so childish
so primary school standard
and you br___ ball biaaatch
tsktsk your jokes are so substandard
the crows fly past and they get frozen in hot sunny singapore
pardon my frail attempts at alliteration.
but yeah.. think i shouldnt say too much
demeans myself
tsktskk
this is what they do to you
they rob you of your intellect and psyco you to think they're ohsohighupthere
oh please. up where?
a year here, and i would have forgotten what sacarsm tastes like.

anyways anyways
i have lost 4 silly nutcases to the country
boohoo
kenneth nehneh went in wayy before the rest
but his current status is MIA
even though he gets out of camp everyday
sent ali and jrmy off on 110409 in tekong
couldnt send hayden off on 140409
but we had so much fun camwhoring before that alr
zzzzz
i miss them alr.
batt rationing sucks

ok im too lazy to blog alr
ciaos

gone with the wind

2009-04-12T01:55:00.000+01:00

CURRENT OBSESSION
[jazzamor! + camwhoring + emoing]

hello world
less than 12 hrs ago
saw us (mandy jo kokhoe) sending ali and jrmy off
at tekong
they make it look like some chalet/resort with seaview
and interesting activities
path along the jetty, there were signs and phrases
that were kinda
propagandist :S
lots of pictures
and final meals before we send them off to 2 weeks of hell/holiday
whatev you wanna perceive it as.
so there goes the sad and depressing farewell for both of them
at tekong itself.
and its glad to hear from them via msges
that they're botak and all..
at least its SOME SIGN OF LIFE.

so there goes another 2
kenneth was long gone
rahhh
tues will see hayden being shipped off to that same island
no farewell on tekong itself, so we kinda had a very impromptu unofficial one at suntec
dinner at MOF and camwhored a hell lot
stupid emo boy. better bring in all our photos.
and dont lose my smiley mozzie patch yall..
i'll miss all of you, really.

besame muchoooo

2009-04-10T17:25:00.001+01:00

"Besame Mucho"

Besame, besame mucho,
Como si fuera esta noche la última vez,
Besame, besame mucho,
Que tengo miedo a perderte, perderte despues [twice]

Quiero sentirte muy cerca mirarme en tus ojos verte junto a mí
Piensa que tal vez mañana yo ya estare lejos, muy lejos de ti

Besame...

Quiero...

Besame...

[English translation]

Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
As if tonight were the last time
Kiss me, kiss me a lot,
For I'm scared to lose you, to lose you afterwards

I want to feel you very close, see myself in your eyes, see you near me
Think that maybe tomorrow I'll already be far, very far away from you

ooooo
i love this song
andre bocelli's rendition is my fav
such a low sensual romantic voice
sung to a beautiful song
x))
but somehow the english lyrics seems to lose some of its romanticism
though i dont understand what it means.

the guys are enlisting soon
sending ali and jrmy off!
and after that we'll have more girl time tgt.
dinner and movie and drinks and talks
ewww knowing has such a horrible ending
i was stunned at the end when aliens came and took them away
-.-
such a spoiler for a suspense-filled beginning
headed to the giraffe after the movie
nice place nice ambience nice decor
wonderful memories would be the latest addition.
x)
ciaos.

i have no work tmr yay

perfect

2009-04-07T20:41:00.000+01:00

"Perfect soul. Perfect mind. Perfect face. A perfect life." -Perfect Lie

Gold With Honors to st pats and SAS!!
Gold to chungcheng (yishun) and crescent!!
x))
well deserved fruits of labour..

grrr since inspiration is running dry, here's some random pictures..

ohmygod MIRANDA KERR!
(sry picture's blur but still, omg)

i am looking for heels of such
i neeeeeed one urgently.
HAHAA
actually, i just want it

i simply love such emotive and artistic shots.
x))

oreo towerrr!
how do you even eat that?!
it'll be rather gross i guess?
oreo cream overloaddd

and this
is
the best thing
mankind has ever created for eyeliners
thankyou.

pocky!!
tastes AMAZINGLY good.
though you know each bite you take of the biscuit is
artificially flavored.
geez.

craving

2009-03-29T15:01:00.000+01:00

i have..
a craving for
green frutips
and
green haribos
and
fries
and
subway

where's my lunch?
rahhhh

JASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSMINE!

2009-03-29T13:38:00.000+01:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUUGUU!
hahaha

alright alright
planing was a whole big mess
lots of last minutes
-.-
at 12am
mandy called
and made weird noises in the receiver
then jo called
and put the phone to the speaker of her com which was playing a korean drama
rx called
and some music played
xt called
and went GRRRRRRRRRRRR
hahahahha!
i cant rmb the rest..
but we called a total of 19 times
the last time being a call to sing her a birthday song
which was quite a fail.
hahha!

"how we got tgt was a fail!"
haahaha oh cass oh ksah..

my mp3 has been playing songs on shuffle
and the songs are eerily coincedental
chehh
hahahaa!

scratched.

2009-03-26T16:29:00.001Z

i
have
scratched
corneas

yay

-.- and pretty badly scratched actually.
nv noticed before, and i always thought it was dirt or sth..
rubbing my eyes excessively
overwearing my contacts (almost 18 hrs a day, 7 days a week)
pinching my contacts and all sorts.
my corneas are abused.
and there's this really deep scratch in my left eye
which got worse today, i think
after pouring (like srsly pouringgg) saline into my left eye it still majorly irritated
went for eye check up and there you go
scratched corneas
hengg its not infection
:X
went arnd my work place half blind aka w/o contacts
but hurray ive made new specssss
and i'll have to stay off contacts for at least 3 weeks.
zzzzzzzzzzz

2009-03-22T16:14:00.001Z

he walked towards me
a queer hat
a smile so bright and warm
it could melt your heart and maybe your butt
an apple in hand
he passes it to me
it spells, w-i-c-k-e-d
whoaa i could be Snow White for all you know.

Mirror, mirror, on the wall,
Who in this land is fairest of all?

You, my queen, are fair; it is true.
But Snow White, beyond the mountains
With the seven dwarves,
Is still a thousand times fairer than you.

eeck. i dont wanna be fair.
i'd change that children's classic
and make Snow White tan in the sun.
no wait.
snow melts, and tan is not white.
i'd be er..
Water Dark or sth.
eeeck so un-magical.
Dark Waters.
that sounds so evil.

its one of those nights.

2009-03-22T03:28:00.000Z

night falls
silence creeps in
and eats me up piece by piece
exposing my bones.
palpitations deafen me.
lies and pretense surface
and i wear them as a security blanket
protection, escapism.
how i'd long for things
and how i'd wish i nv knew the feeling of possession
in the first place.
i curl up in a corner
waddling in my own sorrow
drowning in my own tears.
i am engulfed
in fear, in uncertainty, in yearning.
there's just too much to lose
too much to gain
capacity
acceptance
it isnt all about greed anymore
it isnt all about me anymore
its one of those nights.

hayden's retarded. repeat after me.

2009-03-22T02:52:00.000Z

Hayden says:
hahhaha
Hayden says:
alot of cute girls like the those frog prince kind leh
Hayden says:
:/
Hayden says:
like
Hayden says:
u know....
Hayden says:
the frog
Hayden says:
kissed alr become prince
Hayden says:
BUT STILL LOOOK LIKE FROG
true colours will bleed says:
hahahha
true colours will bleed says:
wtf

Nicholas Kirkwood spring/summer 09

2009-03-22T02:38:00.001Z

*WARNING
MAJOR SHOE POST.

Nicholas Kirkwood
spring/summer 09

omg.
need i say more?

i cant single out my fav of the lot
cos they're all so deliciously good
fierce but sophisticated
and beautifully structured at the same time
i'd like the entire collection.
but i'll wear it at home only.
tsktskk
i might be robbed for my heels if they were to see daylight.

2009-03-19T12:19:00.000Z

i feel so.. tied down
doesnt feel good at all
im so restricted
my hands are bound.

arghh this sucks.
give me the scholarship.
i screwed 1 out of 3 real bad
only have 2 left.
what are my chances man..

why?

hey there, how're you getting along?
dont turn your back. dont walk away.

maybe?

2009-03-15T13:58:00.000Z

i am like so addicted to this
and omg
its smells so.. sensual
i know its for men
i knowwwww
but i still bought it
hahahha!
smells like my guy's close to me
im not saying that i have one though.
but omgg it is out of this world

cuff links
men fragrances
ties
huge-ass-IN-YOUR-FACE classic time pieces
fountain pen collectables

i think i should've been born as a guy instead.
no?
hahahhaha!

2009-03-09T02:14:00.000Z

im not superwoman
or am i?

i'd like to exceed expectations
but can i?

give me a break.
stop all the talk about results already.

2009-03-08T03:25:00.000Z

Hello world.

at this point of time

limitations are blocking my path

M. B.,B. S. is laughing at me straight in my face

LaTrobe seems like its at the other end of the universe

i dont want to full-pay. i really dont.

its gonna suck my funds dry

hello world.
this is the fate of someone so average, so ordinary, so plain.
give me a little colour at this point of time will you?
maybe not the entire palate of colours, not yet.
dont look down upon me for my petite frame
i may seem to be weak and helpless
but inside and within,
i am bigger and stronger than you can imagine

hello world.
i just need a break now

i hate.

2009-02-27T00:52:00.000Z

i hate guessing games
i hate the uncertainty
i hate feeling like a dog chasing after its tail
i hate this cat-and-mouse race
i WANT to feel in control.
but sometimes, i ask for too much.
i dig my own grave
and drive myself into it.
its a fall into the dark bottomless pit.
i hate to say this.

gameover.

2009-02-25T00:21:00.000Z

i am so tired
and disappointed
rahhh

shamelessly talked to everyone
snrs jnrs alike
close, not so close
i asked everyone
"sry, not free"
"not interested, sry"
SHAMELESSLY

i either texted or called almost 90% of the ppl in my phonebook
i've ran out of names
like srsly.
i have a limited number of friends
sympathize with me

my phonebill is gonna shoot SKY HIGH
though im not paying for it..

i dont need pretty roses
i dont need fancy gifts
all you need is just to GO FOR THE CONCERT
omg..
you dont have to support me
just support the band
support good music in the making.

im so tired
ive given my best and my limited number of smses
i know im over-reacting
you'd be like, "why the hell is xingtong getting so wrked up about a concert? i mean, its just a concert right? half-filled hall? so be it luh."
whatev whatev whatev
you wont understand, you wont

urghhhh gimme a call back, or at least text me back
omg
and just go for the concert

ok i think ive ranted enough for the time being
kthxbye.

i must be crazy

2009-02-23T23:21:00.000Z

`NOTE TO SELF: study for FTT

i had a dream the other day about driving..
my father was driving along the highway and i was in his car.
and he was doing reverse driving at 120km/hr
imagine that
and then he told me, "when you're really good, you can do this too!"
hahahhahaha!
try it out mann. tons of thrills

jasmine had an A lvl dream the same day
she dreamt she got a G grade for math.
HAHAH!!
here here, im not the only weird one.

just when you're loser-ish
take a look at this and comfort yourself.
ALOT

the last one pawns all the rest.

2009-02-22T15:10:00.000Z

i've got to say..
there's this particular perfume i saw at sephora today
the scent has been stuck with me all day
i dont mean the smell/scent, rather i can still rmb HOW it smells like
ever since this afternoon.
it just feels so..
snug
warm
cosy
comforting
mellow
fresh
subtle
light
crisp
soft
hmm.. it doesnt hit you like.. WHAMM! and knocks you out
yeahh like some cheap perfume.
eeeck :X
cant take my mind off it, isnt quite cheap either.
ive got to have it.
sponsors, anyone??

guess im a very "scent" person
if someone wearing a scent that's to my liking walks past me
i'd give a second take.
guys or girls alike.
its just something i find so irresistible about him/her
wl.. kinky stuff going on here.
there's this proven theory that women will find the scent of men more attractive and desirable especially when she's having her period.
cool stuff..
hahahaa!
what can i say?
its one of those things that make me go weak in the knees.

i found this as well..

"Estrogen caps bone growth in a woman's lower face and chin, making them relatively small and short, as well as the brow, allowing for her eyes to appear prominent. Men's faces are shaped by testosterone, which helps develop a larger lower face and jaw and a prominent brow.

Men and women possessing these traits are seen as attractive, because they advertise reproductive health."

-www.livescience.com

its all about jawlines and the collarbone/shoulder area, baby.
bone structures are so so so irresistable..
x)

emokid

2009-02-19T21:16:00.000Z

when things arent going the way you want it
and you're feeling blue
you seek refuge in realm of escapism.
this is how you do it.

but when you cant block everything out
and you're feeling reeeeaally emo.
this is what the model emokid does

HAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAA!
okok and this is what you do when you're reeeeeaally bored.
rahhh

bad dream.. rahhh

2009-02-18T21:56:00.000Z

i had a really horrible dream ytd
like really horrifying one
i was sweating in my shirt hello how terrible can it be..
but i forgot what the entire dream was about
all i knew was that i was running
or rather, a group of us were running, escaping from something i cant remember
fearing for our dear lives.
someTHING was giving chase
cant rmb if we lost ppl along the way, whether they succumbed to the dreaded jaws of that THINGGG.
i really cant rmb what it was.
i was just running, climbing, jumping, struggling to get away in the quickest time possible.

and so.. i googled it and here's what i found at dreammoods:

" Running is an instinctive response to physical threats in your environment. In these dreams, you can be pursued by an attacker, an animal or an unknown figure, who wants to hurt or possibly kill you. In turn, you run, hide or try to outwit your pursuer. Your actions in the dream parallel how you respond to pressure and cope with fears, stress or various situations in your waking life. Instead of confronting the situation, you are running away and avoiding it. Ask yourself who is the one chasing you so that you can gain understanding and insight on the source of your fears and anxieties. "

but i am not running away from anth in my life at this point of time.
not anth that i can put a finger to though.
this is ridiculous.

" The pursuer or attacker who is chasing you in your dream may also represent an aspect of yourself. Your own feelings of anger, jealousy, fear, and possibly love, can assume the appearance of threatening figure. The shadowy figure can also symbolize rejected characteristics of your self. You may be projecting these feelings onto the unknown chaser. Next time you have a chase dream, turn around and confront your pursuer. Ask them why they are chasing you. Perhaps you are running away from something. What are you trying to run from? "

wtf.. how i do turn arnd as i want to.
esp when something with JAWS is behind you
so what, do i turn around and go.
'shut your mouth. dont bite. why do you want to eat me?'
rahh is that it?

"Consider the distance or gap between you and your pursuer. This indicates your closeness to the issue. If the pursuer is gaining on you, then it suggests that the problem is not going to go away. The problem will surround you until you confront and address it. However, if you are able to widen the gap between your pursuer, then the problem is becoming less and less of an issue. You are able to successful distance yourself from the problem. In essence, the problem is fading away. "

i guess its a very generic approach to these "chase" dreams.
urghh everyone's different. every dream is different too.
i woke up, a little shaken, and very very dizzy.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
this is puzzling.

180209

2009-02-17T22:09:00.000Z

'Cause if you're not really here
Then the stars don't even matter
Now i'm filled to the top with fear
But it's all just a bunch of matter

'Cause if you're not really here
Then i don't want to be either
I wanna be next to you
Black and gold~

2009-02-17T13:04:00.001Z

i've rendered you
SPEECHLESS

ive beaten you
HANDS DOWN

how does this sound?
sounds pretty good to me.

those days

2009-02-15T14:43:00.000Z

its one of those days
when you cant help but feel sry for yourself
you hate everyone around you
think the whole world is up against you
your sensitivity is high and at every little comment or attititude of indifference from others
will send your blood boiling
stress hormornes are firing in every blood vessel
when a single word can ruin every single thing
as your patience level decreases
its not because its valentines day
or whatev guesses you can make
its just EVERYONE
someone standing at the door is making you seeth with anger
so much so that you tremble at your little corner
or maybe its fear
of.. i dunno
grossed out
yucks
multiply that by a gazillion times over
im alright im alright im alright
no im not
you will forget you will
you wouldnt
EVER
nevermind about that phantom by the door
you'll ignore
yikes
but for someone else
you cant do the same
help me
pick that up GO
im not a dog
i wont be at your beck and call
you're dumb you're shallow
im not
stop it will you
im sick and tired of your games
or whatever else you're doing
i dont want to do things according to how you react
or how you feel in its entirety
its restraining me
its suffocating you
thankgod you came
its a breather from all these things these Earth-dwellers are engaging in
you always seem different from the rest
thankyou
really
stop it
stop it now
i cant
i cant help it
so captivating argh i cant
help me
i'll be leaving
i want to

`you keep me without chains.

i know. i know.

2009-02-14T01:20:00.000Z

"ok you can wash up"
sure.. its over! im going home to slp.
"see you next week"
yup see you.
i turn to walk towards the sink
"eh ahboy! you're here"
"hi gong gong."
i turn arnd while washing my hands. the sensor on the tap's not working well.
he stands at a distance from the bed with no intention to lower the cot side.
arms by his side
he's nervous, probably uneasy
"what took you so long?"
"nothing."
strangely familiar. disturbingly familiar. nostalgia.
he covers his eyes momentarily, but nth he did could hide his tears.
he's confused, startled. its aching, his heart.
turning around, he sits on the geriatric chair. buries his face in his hands.
"why? what happened?"
i know i too well. i know this familiar scene. i've been in it once before.
"hey we're going downstairs to get some food. you wanna come with us for a while?"
cant accept it. cant process what im actually visualizing. cant believe it in fact.
how could someone so strong and healthy be lying right before me. so frail, so plagued with diseases. the doctors must have missed out sth. things arent right. i know it. I KNOW IT.
"ok say bye to gong gong, we'll be back ltr"
"bye gong gong"
goodbye takes on a whole different meaning. bye ye ye, i would've said.
but that wasnt final.
i nv got a chance to say it at the end.

it was the exact same reaction, the same expression.
only when i was much younger than him.
at an age when you just came arnd to knowing what life and death is about.
just brief knowledge.
but it had to be brought across in such a harsh way. a very tough way.
"tongtong, pull me, i want to sit up"
"whoa, you have a lot of strength!"
i didnt do much honestly, i just held onto his hand.
my mind was in a mess. i couldnt handle the situation.
i was still very young afterall.
i look at everyone, and i know each scar, each injury, each wrinkle is there for a reason.
an untold story.
after witnessing the scene, it was as though i was being thrown back many yrs ago.
at the very same hospital.
replayed.
i couldnt help it today.. it just came naturally.

i still rmb how you look like.
i still rmb how you burped, which i found so gross and annoying
i still rmb how you looked up from your work desk, with that weird magnifying device in your eye.
i still rmb how i used to mess up your stuff, clockworks, springs, leather straps, and all that knick knacks.
i still rmb how you fetched me to sch in the morning in your old but very trusty bicycle. and that we both fell once trying to avoid crashing into a pillar.

it has been 8 yrs.
i still miss you.

2009-02-10T23:24:00.000Z

dont you dare irritate the shit outta me.

2009-02-09T23:49:00.000Z

havent been updating for weeks..
cny came and flew past.
money came in, but of course x)
ppl arnd me are acting weirdly. like i can cover all the fingers on my right hand if i were to count.
call me selfish, nevertheless, i am still happy.
its time i've do sth with my life and take control of it.
after being forced to grow up so much. like really FORCED.
like ali says, adapt. yeahh i had to adapt really quick.
accept the way things are, how life can actually be, how reality can be so cruel.
planning planning planning, with a piece of blank paper as a start.
i could've started anywhere, anytime.
but now.. i want to feel and be in control.
my relationships, my future, my studies, my career, and the material aspects.
its abt time i started, and yeah, baby steps baby steps..
never too late.
sometimes im in a state of paranoia? but aye..
just gotta sit down and stop thinking too much, and maybe talk to ppl abt it.
and then suddenly, i'll be SNAP! why am i thinking so darn much?
im still here, still stagnant.
nothing's done, all empty talk.
comeon xt, you've gotta do sth.
never too late.
never too late.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LESTER!!
*ok i know you wont read this -.-

again...

2009-01-20T20:38:00.000Z

like what hayden says,
"you shop at home, then when you're out, you still shop"
yeahh but im trying to hold back my cashflow for a bit
so here i am
WINDOW shopping
x))
sry, cant help it.

but this is too pretty to be missed
shucks its so girlish and sweet
but i think i'll rather disastrous in this
besides, girl-ly isnt quite what i prefer

xt faced a retard at work today
omg
littlemotherfucker pissed me off like crapp
i mean, what else can i do to someone with sucha guai lan face??
add a du lan attitude and bammm! you've got the complete package.
nevertheless nevertheless..
xt will be undeterred.
so you littlemotherfucker stay away
Ewwww yucks. go away. you're gross.

somedays.

2009-01-18T01:18:00.001Z

somedays you're my friend
and i love you as that
other days you piss me off like mad
and that happens ohsooften its getting quite bad

imma strangling you one day.

2009-01-15T23:47:00.000Z

at this rate.
6 months down the road
im going to be speaking in singlish, broken mandarin, and bits and pieces of hokkien
yayy to xt.

and i come home everyday
exhausted and all
concuss immed after dinner on the couch
but during work, i dont feel tired or anth
its just when you finally get to sit down, take a breath and lethargy sinks in
rahhh

sting!

2009-01-12T23:52:00.001Z

Fields of Gold - Sting

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
We'll forget the sun in his jealous sky
As we lie in the fields of gold

I never made promises lightly
And there have been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We'll walk in the fields of gold

Fragile - Sting

today's a night of listening to soulful music and reading thru lyrics which mean sooo so much to me or probably just beautifully written ones.
and it doesnt help as im trying to search for uni courses in aus.
depression's kicking in
save me.

okok there's to end it all

HAHAHAHA! this is fucking hilarious!!
"I'LL SWEEEEEEP THE FLOORRR!.."

2009-01-12T21:29:00.004Z

Danny Boy - Keith Jarret
aweeeesome shit
ignore his weird facial expressions.
or i should say, it just goes to show how much he is into his music and all

Autumn Leaves - Keith Jarret
he's a bit.. weird as i mentioned
hahahhaha! cracked me up like mad
looks like some audio orgasm going on there
0.o
nevertheless, still as amazing

Autumn Leaves - Eva Cassidy
awwwww i just love her rendition
so laid back, slight chillout and all
i think i'll be completely blown away if some guy sings and plays this on the guitar for me
x))
or maybe i'll be so damn touched i'll start tearing
urghhh why am i fantasizinggg

The falling leaves drift by the window
The autumn leaves of red and gold
I see your lips, the summer kisses
The sun-burned hands I used to hold

Since you went away the days grow long
And soon Ill hear old winters song
But I miss you most of all my darling
When autumn leaves start to fall

such simple and beutiful lyrics..
shucks.. i'll just go weak in the knees

2009-01-09T18:51:00.000Z

"your fee see oh terror pist job?"
-ivy cheungggggggg

-.-
im too exhausted to blog any further
physically tired.
rahhh

2009-01-05T23:19:00.000Z

MM6 Printed Batwing tunic!
urghh so gorgeous..
but i wont spare USD$310 for that

ASOS fringed back longline vest
x))) freaking 10pounds!
should i?
should i??

hahaha im looking for scholarships
-.-
what a joke..
scholarships so i can possibly go to aussie to study
minimize my sch fees and etc.
courses in singapore are far too limited
i really dont know mann
singapore or aussie.
i'll be gone for about 4yrs if i were to go overseas
maybe if i love the environment i might stay there..
ok probably not.
i'll rotate between singapore and aussie
wo bu zhi dao wo bu zhi dao

2009-01-05T22:17:00.000Z

all of us are so fortunate
so FUCKINGGG fortunate
all of us able-bodied men and women.

pardon the language
cant seem to find a way to emphasize it further
im not good with words either.

dreeeeeeeeamm dreamm dream dreeeeeeam~

2009-01-04T21:49:00.001Z

this was abt a month ago?
cant exactly rmb
but i had a srsly ridiculous dream/nightmare (which ever way you wanna look at it)
so it all revolved arnd the anxiety of getting back my results
i guess that was about a few weeks after As ended?
my memory's failing me. i feel like an old woman
eeeck.
it was my primary sch hall.
weird. i know.
the current non-existing sch hall which was torn down to make way for the new campus
everyone was sitting on the floor
think: pri sch style..
and LBY was at the front, announcing the results of the cohort
think: O lvl results day in crescent..
so there were weird subjects like IT and Health
hahaha! doesnt make any freaking sense to me either.
and when she flashed the name for the top student for those two subjects,
i happened to top the sch cohort for IT
-.-
so i thought to myself, "shitt IT, why not health? now i have to study computer science!"
(that com sci part was probably cos rx's sis is a com sci graduate..)
and duhh i was freaking saddened.
LBY went on to ask, "So.. who knows xingtong?"
and thennn
the first row of students started chanting "BAND BAND BAND BAND" and clapping a consistent rhythm
and the others followed while i went to the front of the hall for i-dunno-what-purpose
hahaahha!
retarded dreams..
whooo! "band band band band band"
i woke up and i was like wtf??
hahhahaha!

btw, im not the only idiot who happens to dream of retarded stuff.
mandy's dream was farr farr more retarded.
slping and dreaming while suaning xt all at the same time
BRILLIANT!
lemme find it.

"I dreamt that I was having some torture camp
On a weird island
Then I was having such a horrible time
I cried alot, I ached alot
Then I just wanted to run away
So I looked over the edge of the island
Then suddenly I saw a ton of clouds and blue sky
The island was in the middle of the air -_-
So I got really depressed and moody
Because if I tried escaping I'd jump to my death
Oh I didn't mention
I was with the clar girls too, lol
Then one of the days we had to ferry mud in huge buckets
And it was such a backbreaking job
Another day, one of the challenges was, okay this will sound weird
Pardon me
But we had to run in just singlets and shorts in the cold
Like up and down the corriders in a weird sky palace thing
Owned by some dragon =/
Then we ran so much and weren't allowed to stop or we would be killed
But it was freezing
In the sky you know, like what minus zero degrees celsius
Then everybody was so tormented and upset
Joanna was complaining that it was unfair
One day the dragon wanted to fly somewhere
But like planes they need to gather speed
So all of us (there were many other people of course)
I think about forty thereabouts
Had to put their arms around the scaly body
Then lift it
Then all run and run in circles and we weren't allowed to stop again
Or we'd get trampled on or scolded
And =x XingTong was screaming and hanging on to the dragon
Cos erm SORRY!
The rest of us were running real fast and we were taller
So she was kinda in the air
Okay this is a dumb dream I know x_x
So we were all exhausted and really depressed
And this spaceship thing came to save us!
Pardon my rubbishing
I seriously don't know why I dreamt it
Then it was like those robot things in Gundam Seed
And we were all flying home
All of us were so delighted and everything
Then when we landed I was so relieved
But then I realised we left someone behind
So in a crazy moment I sprinted to another robot thing taking off
And flew off with them
Super unhappy about going back but...
Okay I woke up then XD
Everyone reading this must think I'm nuts right now"

urghhh..

2009-01-02T02:32:00.000Z

pulling strings.

its a dog-eat-dog world out there
turn arnd for too long, you'd get your arse bitten off.

Hafsteinn Juliusson

2009-01-02T00:31:00.000Z

i just found this site!!

growing jewellery!
yess. its GROWINGGG
like grass or sth
im not too sure..

laptop bags!!
i'd love to own one of them
so adorable!!!
x))

soooo freaking versatile
one minute its a bag
next minute its a pillow!!
this will DEFINATELY come in handy for me

its just an online portfolio of a product designer
but the stuff there are pretty awesome, very erm.. PECULIAR.
yeahh.
click here --> http://hafsteinnjuliusson.com

ok here's one last picture..
so retarded
retarded-ly cute
x)

spasming muscles and twitching eyes

2009-01-01T21:38:00.000Z

HAPPY NEW YR!
its a brand new yr
with a brand new job for me
and brand new opportunities in life
butbutbut its my same ol' good hommies
girlfriend guyfriends alike
x))
wont bother much with new yr resolutions cos i wont likely to be keeping them up

last day of 2008 was spent rushing to peninsular shopping centre to submit some impt stuff for my job
and then spent 2 hrs having steamboat dinner with my family
wooo! i wanna have steamboat again x))
met up with rx and mandy for countdown
guess where..
NEE SOON EAST (khatib)
oh dearr it was such a blast -.-
and then to mandy's to slack arnd before reaching home at 1+ am

urgh pretty much wraps up my 2008
welcoming 2009 wasnt so much of a big deal
feels much more like an average wednesday, crossing over to thursday
whatev whatev
who knows what awaits me in this new yr?
a new yr, where i wont have to dread/anticipate the re-opening of sch
a new yr, where i wont have to wake up on 6am and put on a uniform (aka not thinking abt what to wear)
a new yr, where i wont be going back to sch, everyone in their freshly pressed outfits
a new yr, where i wont be msging Yini our "first day of sch" poem annually, ever since we left chongfu
a new yr, where i wont be worrying which sucky teacher in sch will be teaching my class
yeahh, a new yr.
its a new beginning.

not your typical love novel..

2008-12-30T23:47:00.001Z

"How did you know?" he said. "When Norris himself did not?"
"That Dr Grenville is his father?"
"Yes."
She took his hand. "Come with me."

"Here," she said. "This is how i knew."
He stared at the painting of a dark-haired young man who stood beside a desk, his hand resting atop a human skull. His brown eyes gazed straight at Wendell, as though in direct challenge.
"Its a portrait of Aldous Grenville when he was 19 yrs old," said Rose. "That's what Mrs Furbush told me."
Wendell could not tear his gaze from the painting. "I did not see it until now."
"I saw it at once. And i have no doubt." Rose stared at the young man's portrait, and her lips curved into a sad smile. "You always recognize the one you love."

-The Bone Garden
Tess Gerritsen

2008-12-30T15:48:00.000Z

in jurong port now
and im dyinggg
fuckk
not workload
its that fffffffucking guy opposite me smoking his arse off
knnbccb..
i didnt care. when he lighted his second stick, i was like.. fuckkk!
like why hell would you wanna smoke in a freaking AIRCONDITIONED ROOM
i might as well light up two sticks
poke them in your nostrils
make it 4 sticks
2 more for your ears
and pour kerosene over your head
then it'll probably blast your brains
like blend it into puree or sth
and throw your body into the sea
which is btw, less than 500m away from where i am now
gross
maybe the fish in the sea will get GILL CANCER
instead of lung cancer
and the sea will EUTHROPHICATE
you fucking arsehole, a threat to human kind
i need to get rid of you to save the world you cb
and most importantly, save my lungs
damnit. you should rot in hell

2008-12-30T14:06:00.001Z

now lets see.

huh??
sry agyness deyn
that red thinggg of yours just doesnt work for me
:X

*shrieks in horror
zomgg
whats with that
hi lisa b.
you had to be nutty when you picked that for the GQ Men of the Yr awards
GREEN??
SHEER??
HOSIERY????
looks pretty much like slippery moss

here here..
some fab heels i found
i forgot where i found it and who made it
but awww.. its gorgeous. need i say more?

but of course.. here's the more budget-friendly vers!
from gojane
no no to ugly rose
no no to plain black boring heel
nope this shall pass..

!!! i love this Mike&Chris Nolan leather jacket
x)) *double chin grin
spare me 600++pounds thankyou
or buy me some jacket with the same cutting and of good material
i will love you long time long time~

2008-12-29T00:34:00.000Z

be a **** ** no 2
then we get to read about
ur husband who nvr existed
the cancer which can nvr kill
the death day which nvr comes

quote unquote ali
you know what im talking abt.
hahaha! dont deny

(name has been sensored to protect the individual)
*sniggers
as if.

2008-12-28T22:05:00.001Z

MEN
their power
politics
riches
and women

money TALKS,
srsly..

urrrghhh

2008-12-28T00:09:00.000Z

im crossing my fingers and toes and everything else
and hope that you wont turn up
arghh..
twist and cross everything possible
like what?
"err.. hi?"
"how have you been?"
"how're your fags? killing you alr?"
eeeck..
these kind of situations suck

on the other hand, its nice to be free
free, and i can do what i want
free, and not tied down
yucks. i'll rather stay this way
for the time being..
hahaha!

for the record. lemme say that
jrmy is the biggest sicko everrr
so here we have a very soulful piece of music from twilight..
called flightless bird

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

so.. the both of us were trying to decipher the lyrics over msn..

but you've got that royal flush says:
i dont quite understand the lyrics of flightless bird
but you've got that royal flush says:
:X
The Blue and White says:
yea
The Blue and White says:
the american mouth thing is so....wtf?
The Blue and White says:
i only liked the melody
but you've got that royal flush says:
eh you you you SINGAPORE MOUTH!!

ok thats not the main reason why im blogging this down.

The Blue and White says:
but he racist
The Blue and White says
he want to kiss american mouth
but you've got that royal flush says:
ahaha! shit you luhh
but you've got that royal flush says:
you wanna kiss singapore mouth eh?
The Blue and White says:
Big pill looming....viagra? contraceptive?
The Blue and White says:
hahaha
but you've got that royal flush says:
wth..
but you've got that royal flush says:
haha dont kill me ahh
The Blue and White says:
Big pill stuck going down
but you've got that royal flush says:
i think big pill refers to sth that's hard to accept
The Blue and White says:
he chocked on his viagra
The Blue and White says:
hahahaha
but you've got that royal flush says:
HAHAHAH!!
but you've got that royal flush says:
wth srsly.
The Blue and White says:
hahaha
The Blue and White says:
i just realised
The Blue and White says:
flightless bird....erectile dysfunction?
The Blue and White says:
tts why need pill
The Blue and White says:
hahaha
The Blue and White says:
makes sense!!!
but you've got that royal flush says:
shitt.
but you've got that royal flush says:
you're gonna kill me
but you've got that royal flush says:
hahahaa
The Blue and White says:
i think i did

2008-12-22T14:27:00.000Z

Here in your arms where the world is impossibly still
With a million dreams to fulfill
And a matter of moments until the dancing ends
Here in your arms when everything seems to be clear
Not a solitary thing would I fear
Except when this moment comes near the dancing's end

2008-12-22T14:11:00.000Z

i just dreamt of my pri 3 chinese teacher
in her cheongsam or some other chinese traditional outfit
thats what she usually wore..
but still..
I CANT BELIEVE I DREAMT OF HER

and i dreamt of my close friends the previous night
clar girls, some guy friends, crescent clique, CGSSB clique
and yes, in groups.
arghh its like having your life flash before you or sth.

anw, i know i promised myself not to rant abt any highly personal matters on this blog when i switched over from the previous one to this..
but i really have to get this out of me
im pretty messed up right now
and i cant help it
plus its too disheartening.
tell me why did i get myself into this

backkK!

2008-12-21T03:02:00.000Z

back in s'pore!
ok fine. a few days ago to be exact
17dec
welllll.. i was SUPPOSED to be back on 16dec midnight
but
the flight was overbooked
and we didnt check in online beforehand cos the frontdesk at our hotel came up with some lame excuse that "no... we dont have internet connection here"
wtf-.-
thanks ah
my dad just accessed his mail on his phone in your VERY OWN lobby
wow.
ok fine, no checkin, no biggie
so yeahh
checked in. oh i mean TRIED TO check in at the airport
but too bad. no seats for all nine of us
mandy stayed in hk a few days more
so nine: daddy, mama, lester, me, ali, hayden, kenneth, jrmy, james
then cathay came up with a brilliant plan..
heavily subsidized dinner, 1N regal airport hotel stay, business class seats, and compensation in cashhhh
yeahh and after that we were still thinking of ways to extort more money from them
x))
ANDDD
i daresay that the regal rooms are TWICE the size of our dorsett rooms damnit.
even the rooms on our 9th floor were about the TOTAL NUMBER of rooms in dorsett
arghh thats how sad it is
:X

lots of shopping!!!
eating!
omgzzzz my waistline is gone
imma fat pig arghh
joking
laughter
late night talks
*which kinda explains some photos on fb -.-
fooling arnd
*ref above
ocean park rides!!
aka the dragon and the abyss
such lame-o names but whatev
really fun rides, and guess what
when you're at the top of the abyss,
and its freaking you out, whereby you're gonna free-fall any moment
you get a really scenic view..
and pooooof! down you go screaming your lungs out
hahahahah!
really cool stuff
esp when mandy hayden and i were sitting, FACING THE SEA
O.o

ok im not gonna say im typing a more elaborate post next time
cos i have severe STM and i tend to forget stuff easily
HAPPY memories included
aye.. its kinda sad
pictures are on fb anw
x)) so if you havent alr taken a peek, yeah maybe its time

but anw,
i love my friends.

2008-12-11T23:54:00.000Z

imma flying off to HK in a few hrs
08:05 flight!
so friggin excited!!!
i'll be back with loads of clothes..
shoess..
maybe another lomo cam *grinsssss*
lots of pictures..
food..
and of course, more FATS.
oh yay.
hahahh!

took my film to develop today at triple D
guess what
im so damnass smart you wont even believe it
when i couldnt rewind the film, i knew sth was wrong
so i was kinda like.. oh shittt
took it to the uncle in hope of some miracle that he could solve the problem in the dark room or sth
AND THEN..
i realized that i loaded the film UPSIDE DOWN
-.-
rahhhhh
wasted shots.
nvm its ok.
everyone makes mistakes
mine just HAPPENS to be stupider ones

ALTER EGO IS...

strutting into a train carraige like you own it
standing in the middle of nowhere and bobbing your head to the music
when music is playing from a mysterious source (which is later learnt to be from a hp (-.- srsly), and at full blast.
when other commuters are staring, then noticing the petite girl in close proximity giving looks of irritation and utter disgust, carries on to be nonchalant abt it all
wearing silver chunky rings on EVERY (i stress, EVVVVERY) finger, thinking its the lastest thing in town.
at its peak when you think you EXUDE glory and machismo from every chromosome of your body, while the 'rocky' theme song is playing in the background

its hilarious srsly
and most of all RETARDED -.-
you all shouldve been there to join me in all that mockery

HOLGA VS DIANA!

2008-12-11T02:23:00.000Z

just got my holga!!! yesterday
and oh mann
shooting and capturing images of all sorts since i loaded the film today
i was at raffles place for work today and my oh my, arent there many things to capture in the world of plastic lens and such
COLORED FLASHHH! plus i hope MOST of the pictures turn out nice
well i mean, it is all about unexpected results
x)))
*triple-chin grin
hahahah!
i know i overexposed some of the pictures by doing my multiple exposures in flash
cos i FORGOT
and and i will definitely have blanks or pitch dark pictures because...
i forgot (yes again..) to take out the lens cap
!!!!!!!!
so so retarded. i know.
and im sry but being the noob i am at photography
i had to call my dad in the morning while he was at work to ask him how to go abt LOADING THE FILM
brillianttt.
whatev whatev, i got it in and loaded properly anyway
and had loadsss of fun with it
i had like 1?.. 2?.. 3? strangers asking me about my holga
and GEORGE ALL ARND TOWN TODAY
aka.. curious george.
go eat banana peels if you dont know who curious george is

anw, yes teri, took me some time to reply to your qs in the last post
here it is anw! x)

DIANA!

The Diana+ closely resembles the camera from which it is patterned after, but the designers at Lomography went several steps further, adding a pinhole aperture and also a removable plastic lens.
Diana’s (both the original, clones and the new Diana +) create beautiful & dreamy shots.
The exact nature of these unique attributes differ from model to model and indeed from camera to camera.
The finder is above the lens in a Diana, making composing more accurate.
4 apertures (the traditional 3 - sunny, hazy, cloudy, plus the pinhole)
Choice of 3 negative frame sizes (panoramic, 6×6 and 4×4).
The ability to shoot pinhole shots on the same roll as plastic lens shots.
The ability to shoot pinhole traditionally or with the lens on.
The ability to mount your Diana+ on a tripod, it makes using the “b” shutter selection so much easier for pinhole and night shots/long exposures.
The relatively new Diana F + gives the added opportunity for flash photography with the provided flash or using a modern hotshoe flash of your choice with the provided hotshoe adapter.
The plastic doodad (even though it is a bit of a gimmick and fiddly) to allow really long exposure times without physically holding the shutter down).
The loading of film is a bit fiddly, not as easy as with the traditional original Diana camera, but you get used to it with practice.
The film advance can wind on accidently if you are not careful, for example, when putting it in a camera bag.
The Diana (or, more specifically, the Diana+) is cheaper, but doesn't leak as much light. It's a little hard to use because the film can get caught sometimes.
Comes with a lot more aperture settings (including pinhole), so it's a little more versatile in varying light conditions.

HOLGA!

They give a lovely soft image with nice vignetting (many feel the vignette is nicer in the Holga as compared to the Diana and they could be right) Once again, like with Dianas different Holgas can give different results!
Some people think that the Holga’s build quality is better than the Diana, some things are better, the plastic is thicker and they may stand up to being dropped better than Dianas
Holga’s back can fall off easily because the design of the clips to hold the back on aren't very firm, may need to use rubber bands to make sure the back stays on.
The Holga is easier to use, by leaks A LOT more light. This can be remedied by adding tons of black tape, though it's kind of a pain in the ass to do so.
Easier to load, the advance wheel is pretty smooth, and the film doesn't get caught a lot.
The Holga 120CFN (*MINE MINE MINE!!!) also comes with four colored flashes, while the Diana doesn't have flash at all (or even a hotshoe).
As far as pictures go, pictures taken with the Holga will be sharper than the Diana, but still vignette.
CFN vs GCFN - plastic lens vs (cheap) glass lens, you'll get sharper images for GCFN but!!! the whole purpose of getting a holga is so that you get blurry, and unexpected images. So sharp images?? digital instead babe..
G: glass, C: colour flash, F: focus (adjustable), N: normal... so yeah, whatev models you see out there, just follow this template.

Other reviews:

"If you would like to test the idea of working with plastic cameras out, I would recommend you start with Holga. It's much cheaper than the Diana, and a good camera to have in your collection, even if you decide to move onto the DianaF+."

"if you have either a holga or diana alr, i suggest not getting another one of the other. because both cameras are similar. instead get a camera that is TOTALLY different from the two 120 format cams."

ok. what a wordy post.
sry if you had to glue your eyes to the monitor for such a long time :X
i have to admit, much of it was extracted off pages of lomo sites
albeit some personal touches
but hey, i compiled it!
hahahha!

okok.. imma looking at some really awesome pictures
inspiration just keeps flowing in babyyy..

cool effect eh??
I HAVE TO TRY THIS SOME DAY!
a very smart way of playing with multiple exposures
x)

here's this really interesting way of displaying your pictures
if im still into photography in the future
i'll have one of these in my hse next time!
oh btw, those are rasterbated images
as in your pictures get blown up really huge and then each 'box' you see in the pictures is actually an A4 size paper.

so imagine. how BIGGGGG the pictures would be

anw, here's the link for more pictures
some are just ordinary
others are simply mind-blowing-ly artistic
enjoy,
http://homokaasu.org/rasterbator/gallery.gas

2008-12-05T01:00:00.000Z

so..
i was shopping online for cameras
and by that, i mean FILM cameras
awww so old sch
x))

i was looking at various sites
looking for sellers with INSTOCK
arghh its so difficult to find ppl with cheap (ok reasonably cheap) instocks
most sellers are conducting sprees and when the camera/loot arrives at my doorstep, i'll be off in HK alr
see, i wanted to get one before HK trip so i can snap marvelous pictures
BUTBUTBUT the irony being, HOLGA originates in HK
so actually, it'll be cheaper if i buy there
ohhh whatev whatev
im an impulse buyer
i just bought another top the day i got my allowance
oh xingtong xingtong..

anw, these are some really cute stuff i chanced upon during my search:

golden half - baby blue (LIMITED ED!)

oh dearrr this looks so tempting

i'd buy this for collection

if i had money to feed my fireplace or sth

(nono, i have NO fireplace at home, its SINGAPORE. fireplace summore, and i'll end up burning my arse)

fisheye!! - yellow edition

this is so so so er.. looks yummy to me.

i wouldnt mind getting this if someone sponsors me

i'll pay for postage. yes oh yes.

fisheye - woodgrain!

classyyyyy

look! all of it in chrome edition!!

awww i love the diana best

x))

(bottom right)

now, whimsical whimsical stuff

Diseri - 2 lens

like seriously, you get 2 pictures

or rather, 2 different views

cool eh?

Diseri - 3 lens

now you get 3 views! how awesome is that!

and oh

Diseri - 4 lens

hahaha!

alrightyy

this is what i got in the end

WHITE ONE THOUGH
x)))

Holga 120 CFN

meaning.

COLOR FLASH (yeah you get to choose white/blue/red/yellow flash)

plastic lens

but being a plastic toy camera, thats how it should be

oh mann i cant wait to lay my hands on it!!

and i am so going to zhnggg my holga

x))

i alr have an idea, just need to get to work when i get it

and and and the AMAZING pictures!

you can google 'lomography', go to www.lomography.com and read up abt it

but i swear its poisonous

just cos i read and SAW the pictures, i was completely blown away

"YOU ARE MINE!!"

hehh :X

and if any of you get poisoned by this lomo thing, do pm me

we'll go snappp away with our new-found loves

Brasserie Wolf!

2008-12-04T01:07:00.001Z

hotmail is loading at snail's speed and im about to blow my top
i CANNOT stand waiting more than 10secs for a page to load
the com will go out of the window
(okok i probably wont do that..)

went for dinner at Brasserie Wolf!
with rx jo mandy jeremy (intro-ed us) ali hayden tau daryl kenneth sky and james
ohhh and i spent a bombbb
considering the amt of food i ate
i had this marrrrrvelous dessert
pistachio choc cake or sth
which was OHSODELISSHH
hot melted choc in the centre which was so rich
whoaaa like seriously heaven
haha pictures and more updates next time when i get them from mandy
x)))
i wont mind paying $50 odd++ again for the ambience
hahah!
i am such an idiot.
told jo that i'll definitely bring my bf there next time
and they were saying..
that my bf will save so so much if he were to treat me
kinda true.
i will demand expensive veggies!
x)

wanted to get into zouk
but..
too many ppl.
and personally, i'll feel safer with more guys with me
like if the whole group of us went instead
:X
i sound like sucha slut, but yes
i need protection.
just sth abt insecurity thats so evident in my everyday life
ahhh whatev whatev.

2008-12-02T02:43:00.005Z

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO CASSANDRA!!!
lipid-so!

i've wished her gazillion times alr
hahaha!
met up with cass ksah km and jefri at kallang
and downnn to esplanade for ICHIBAN BOSHI!
hmm.. not bad i shall say
at least there's quite a variety (still quite pathetic though) of veggie sushi
or whatev you call them..

some cucumber-wrapped thing

rahh pictures are so blur

how can i miss out.. CORNNN

x)))

ginko satay!

hmm. thats what they call it

"its so queer!" -cass

shucks.. ginko nuts are so delish! trust me.

tsk.. acting innocent

(KW: ACTING)

hahahahah!

*gobbles the entire cucumber-wrapped sushi

hhahha! lipidso your mouth aint that big luhh

then to swensens @ marina sq

with.

a WHOLE LOT OF CRAP

x)))

shucks i miss these guys

who have the ability to make me laugh 24/7 NON-STOP

ok.. maybe we all self-entertain

alright this is ridiculous

"miami.. phoenix.. phuket.."

so phoenix here is pronounced 'feeenix'

ksah said phuket

as 'FOOOOKET'

if you put phuket on top of phoenix, you'll get phuket

'pooooket'

and..

'peeenix'

omg.. i died

NOWW

you have FOOKIT AND PEENIX

hahahah!

how.. vulgarrr

and this caused a whole lot of commotion

along with cassandra's head bobbing to the tune of scandalous

"lets try bobbing backwards"

*proceeds to demonstrate

"and diagonally!"

*demontrates

HAHAHHAAH!

okok i know its hard to share the joke but whatev

this is for our own entertainment purpose

x))

we'll be seeing each other more eh??

haha!

i miss all of you

so lets see

i went diy-ing today

and dyed my blouse

my lilac blouse

BLACK

lets just say...

its quite a disaster

rahhhh

and then, this brownie for lunch

well, not exactly diy, but INSTANT

cool eh?

pour water, mix, microwave, eat

how convienient for lazy shits like me

outcome:

hahahha! okok i know it looks like shattt

like literally shaattt

but hey, the light brown areas are caramel!

it tasted reaaaaally nice

except that..

i added too much water

and it turned out more like cake than brownie

FRENCH DINNER TOMORROW!!

which is gonna burn a big fat hole in my wallet

whatev

its just us, so i guess, less awkwardness

woooo!

i am so looking forward

tired..

2008-11-27T23:17:00.000Z

i shall be lazy and break my promise of an update of mandy's birthday celebrations
and besides, the pictures and videos arent with me
wait till ali sends them to me

do cats eat hotdogs anw??
mandy fed the stray at my block some hotdog from her bun or sth.
and she said that it ate it, spit it out, ate it and spit it out again.
cats eat CHICKEN??
or is hotdog made of pork?
rahhh i have no idea cos i dont eat hotdogs
im a ~~vegetarian~~ vegan
and as hayden likes to say "chi1 cao3 de4!"
oh whatev whatev
dont force me to eat meat damnit
i havent tasted meat for more than 10 yrs so dont try
yes 10 YEARS baby..
(oh well, give and take that occassional accidental bits that appeared in my food)
so anw, i digress i digress.
the cat. yes the cat.
i came home at night, and that cat which is supposed to be there 24/7, usually not moving its catty arse, was missing.
ok maybe it decided to go somewhere else
but, i'd think its the hotdog..
imma telling mandy she killed the cat, shall i?
KIDDING.

ok, im officially B-R-O-K-E
x(((
i'll try to get some pay from my mom's company..
cos, hey! its due anywayyy.
shucks i sound so spoiled
but i need money to eat as well..
if not, i'd have to cook instant noodles for lunch everyday
cos im probably too lazy to cook anything else.
not that i know how to cook any others anw :X

2008-11-27T15:28:00.001Z

im back home for a while
to change into more decent clothing
and then out to fish and co glasshse
not many ppl are going, which kinda irritates me
nah.. nvm shant talk abt it
i will tolerate..
tolerate..
wo ren..
meanwhile mandy's running all over yishun trying to get to places
and find clues to the next destination
she'll be reaching in like... a few minutes??
hahaha
gtg

busy..

2008-11-27T03:35:00.000Z

been caught up with preparations..
for..
MANDY'S BIRTHDAY!
(ok i hope she's not reading this)
okok i promise an update abt it tmr!

for one, i watched ratatouille and if only the other day
and woke up at 2pm the next day
well, it's becoming quite the norm
and so it reflects in my blog entries..
booooooooooooooooooring..
anw, watched those two cos i was so drawn, attracted or whatev you call it to the soundtrack
x)
ok, say.. i am a sucker for nice soundtracks
just like how some girls are suckers for perfume in pretty bottles
yeah.. thats abt it
you might find me tearing occasionally, listening to beautifully written songs
layers after layers of instrumental groups
and how they weave in and out at the melody line
and the basses, yes the basses
the full round tones that they produce
supporting the whole orchestra, and most importantly
its like the wrapping paper for your xmas present
(well xmas is round the corner..)
w/o it, it wont be a surprise for the recipient
just an object in its crude form
oh well, maybe you've heard abt the "cake" theory to explaining the above
its the same thaaaang.

anw, i just watched this episode of tyra
i mean, her talk show
and..
er
i sort of died
it was abt paedophiles.
and there was this interview with this REPEATED paedophile offender
okok. thats not really my point.
it got quite horrifying when the guy said sth along the lines that
he kinda mentally strips the girl
(keyword: MENTALLY)
and imagines her naked
then erm.. other stuff follow??
so nowww
YOU START TO THINK.
what if you see some tiko or cheekopeh on the streets
or maybe you DONT EVEN NOTICE HIS PRESENCE
then he scans you with his eyes..
from your head to your toes
up down up down..
like some freaking xray
ok..
this is simply. gross.
but then again, notes to self, dont get too paranoid..
oh, theres one thing i dont understand.
why do ppl upskirt girls
and take pictures of them from underneath their skirts
and yadayada..
pardon my crudeness, let me warn you first
but
its just FREAKING PANTIES -.-
maybe its just the pleasure
maybe its just the 'badge-of-honour" that, oh look ive got some chick's granny panties!
i dunno i dunno
and i DONT WANT TO KNOW
thankyou
i guess they are pretty much similar to that paedophile above.
"i see you nekkid!"
oh whatev..

ive gotta slp soon
a very exciting day ahead..

FINALLY...

2008-11-22T11:40:00.000Z

aye

im done with my blogskin and all!

finally

simple, thats how i like it.

no more black or dark tones like my previous blog

emo is passe

hahahha! whatev whatev

no tagboards btw, i decided to do away with it, cos tags are so so troublesome

but instead

COMMENT

yes.. thats it.

ive started work alr

my papers ended on 20nov

and the next day, poof! off to work!

hiong, if you might call it

working for my mom though

and her company's paying me quite a reasonable sum

which.. i shall not disclose.

x) it is so so so sensitive

all i shall say is, no hourly rates, nor a fixed salary

it all depends on the number of days, or rounds to offices

hahaha! yes, which means if i work for a measly 3 hrs, i get paid $**

and if i work like a lunatic for 8hrs (ihopenot ihopenot), i get paid $** as well

there's adv and disadv, but its still workkkk

better work than not
like my mom said, "its better if you follow me to offices whenever you're free. at least you get some money... instead of rotting at home"

WATCH 'THE HOLIDAY' WHEN YOU'RE FREEEEEE!

its a must-watch

romantic and all

but not saccharine-sweet romance

eeeeeck. i cant stand those, sry

oh i loooove this! x)

Jack Black.

sry, i just thought he spoiled it all

cos i kept seeing 'shark tales' written all over his face

is it just me or what?

JUDE LAWWWWWW!

tsk.. chest hair

2008-11-21T11:16:00.000Z

alrightt

ive decided to switch from lj to this cos i simply cant figure lj templates out
im such a retard. yes i know

A lvls are overrrrrrr

OVERRRRRRR do you hear??
but somehow

my mind doesnt seem to realize it

its like. there're so many more math qs to do

summation integration P&C hypothesis testing..

so much more chem qs

equilibria kinetics periodicity..

and who can forget

the ever-dearest: ORGANIC CHEM

and then there's bio

HIV protease action potential negative feedback gene therapy..

i'd gladly recite the entire portion of CF i memorized

ECONSECONSECONS!

H1 subject, but i had tuition for it

with the H2 ppl

yeah, it was that crazy

rx jas shilin ali jeremy hayden james

not to mention we only started tuition last min..

a few weeks before prelims

before prelims/As, i knew SHIT abt econs

it was like.. a crash course.

yucks.

nevertheless

GDP price stability MULTIPLIER EFFECT

lets not go to GP thankyou..

i'll miss the times we spent studying out

upon the excuse or not-so-much-of-an-excuse that we couldnt study at home

at starbucks novena

tcc novena

bk novena

BUDDIES! khatib x)))

bishan void deck

rx's hse

jeremy's hse

and as for jeremy's hse

i think we spent more time playing on the guitar and the piano than we did studying

i failed horrrrrrribly at my attempts to play on the guitar

acc to them, its to big for me

O.o
seriously, too big for me???

rahhh

all of us got along better

only abt the time when we were abt to leave band

jas mentioned sth abt the 'big-grp dynamic' or sth along that line..

yeah..

im pretty happy i got to meet this bunch of ppl

(sry abt my limited vocab)

esp my clar girls

its amazing how we nv intended to call ourselves that

'CLAR GIRLS'

doensnt make us more or less exclusive (if you know what i mean..)

out of 5, 4 live in yishun

which includes me

pretty amazing huh?

out of 5, 4 attended girls sch

which includes me as well

is it too much of a coincidence?

hahhaa

whatev whatev

we just cliqued so well

and as we go by the saying

"we're in this tgt"

after the night we spent crying in the tao-huay shop

(ok.. it sounded so un-romantic there suddenly)

after SYF practices which extended to abt 8?

we've been thru so so so much

and the feeling of being ostracized by erm.. ppl..
:X

haha!

but still

i love you all

<33>

hahha! is that how ahlians do the love sign?

or rather, the lurbxzx sign.

band camp 07 at SAS band room

(jas rx mandy me jo)

SECTION!!

(mandy me jo rx jas benyeo benny weitheng)

farewell dinner 08

i lovvvvve this picture though the pic qlty is horrible

(mandy me jo jas benny)

T3, sending J1s off to perth

another of my fav pic!

(benyeo jo mandy rx me)

clar girls outing to central 07

i wont be able to survive JC life w/o you all

you all know who you are

(though you wont be reading this)

im going to slp

its freaking 3am.